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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2005|08:18 am]
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blue_moon07
[mood |crushedcrushed]

You all know who this is by now, Stevie 16 and pregnant again well... i was scared to go to my 14 week check up. it was last Thursday, i went at 5:00 and he went to do an ultrasound looking for the heartbeat and he couldnt find it, i went for a level two ultrasound and they told me i had lost the baby. i guess in a way i should feel some relief because i get a second chance at the future in a way but it hurts SO bad to have something that was so real and so there just be taken away from you in an instant. i've cried every waking moment since then and continue to cry as i write this to you. i just knew something was wrong guys i dont know why. but i know the Lord has a plan for me and all this is just that all part of a bigger picture. i still have hope because i know the Lord is with me. now i have two babies waiting for me that i will see again. i lost my baby at 14w 3d, i have pictures online of the ultrasounds and my belly but dont know how to put them on here so... but thank you all so... much for all you have done for me you have been great help and support for me when no one else was. i wish you happy preggos and bright futures.thanks again

~Stevie~
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(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2005|03:18 pm]
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shona
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

Sometimes i think about what size my bump would be now or how many days i would of had left now..
Losing bump made me realise how important people are to me..
For example my wonderful boyfriend, who now is my FH.
I am lucky i have people and communitys to help me with my pain
Thank you everyone for being there for me..
You are all amazing people :)

I think that when i do get pregnant again & touch wood it will all go well, that i'll be a great mum.

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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2005|11:12 pm]
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shona
While i was away in spain i told my brothers girlfriend about bump.. she thinks its for the best because of my age.. shes wrong.
I cried alot about bump.
It still hard.
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long time no see... [Jul. 28th, 2005|08:33 am]
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blue_moon07
[mood |enthralled]

This is Stevie and today i am 13w 3d prego. my mom knows now and it was not an easy task and to say she was upset is an understatement. she was royally pissed but she soon realized that being mad wasn't going to make "the problem" as she puts it go away. i am just a little bit starting to show... and very excited as well as terrified that something could go terrible wrong. i am no longer with the babies father which upset me in the begining but now im fine with. i have a new man who isnt bothered by the fact im carrying another mans child. i love him hes amazing and just great. i cant wait to start school again so i can get out of the house more! other than fights between mother and i all is well... hope everything is well for everyone else too!
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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2005|10:48 am]
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jonandjennsbaby
I started bleeding crazy bad yesterday so we went to the hospital. After waiting for ever and what not FINALLY had my ultra sound. We saw the little heart beat it was adorable. ♥I had a threatend miscarriage NOT a miscarriage and am on bedrest till Monday. I may have to quit my job because it's a standing/running around job. Which means I need to start looking. But other than that hopefully everything works out.

x-posted everywhere
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(no subject) [Jun. 19th, 2005|10:15 pm]
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poem... [Jun. 17th, 2005|04:07 am]
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stop_breathe_go
june 21st - september 1st, 2004
Hannah

i never got to hold you. i never got to tell you i loved you. i never got to hold your hand. i never got to show you a daisy. you never saw the sunshine. you never saw my face. you never felt my kisses. you never felt my embrace. you never got to hear me sing to you. i never got to hear you giggle. i never got to watch you sleep. i never got to show you to your daddy. you never got to wake up. you never got to breathe, you never got to live.
i miss you. i miss the things we should be sharing right now.
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(no subject) [Jun. 13th, 2005|10:00 am]
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blue_moon07
[mood |anxiousanxious]

I'm 7 weeks pregnant today!!! i just founded out! My mom finds out on Wednesday... kinda scared
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i had a still birth [Jun. 9th, 2005|01:31 pm]
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blue_moon07
[mood |crushedcrushed]

I am 16 years old. And today marks one month since i lost my son. This is the story of how my boyfriend (john) and i lost our son:

We went to the doctor for our 20 week check up for an ultrasound. Well during my visit, the nurse couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. This was a regular occurrence since hes an active little thing. Anyway they had to do an ultrasound to see the heartbeat and when they did, they saw a cystic mass in the baby's abdomen and his bladder was enlarged. Our amniotic fluid was low and so they scheduled a level 2 ultrasound. We went for that one and the doctor told us that there was no amniotic fluid and that our baby was going to die and there was nothing we could do about it. They offered to terminate the pregnancy, but he still had a heartbeat and was moving around still (even though it was very faint since there was no fluid.) Theres no way, we held on to what little hope the doctors left for us. They scheduled a second opinion with the head of the department that i went that Monday and they put amniotic fluid in there they said they dont know if it will help any but its worth a try! Well I was cramping from the bladder taps and with the second bladder tap they "installed" 1 liter of saline into my uterus. I was uncomfortable to say the least. When I woke up on Friday, I still had the crampy felling, but I stuck it out thinking it was from the procedures. We went to the doctor and the cramps had gotten progressively worse throughout the days. I was almost a centimeter dilated and the doctor said that it was pointless to stop labor since I had gone into it myself and my baby had a zero chance at survival due to the kidney failure and urinary obstruction. We didn't want to stop it anyway because we knew it was in God's hands. The doctor prescribed Vicodin for pain and said when the contractions got too intense to call the doctor and go to the hospital. (He only gave me vicodin since there was little damage it could do to the baby considering the probable outcome...besides it didn't help with the pain anyways.) At 12 pm we (john and i) They checked me and I was only 1 1/2 centimeters, but I really didn't want to give birth at home obviously! They admitted us and they gave me morphine for pain (again it doesn't really help with contraction pain, it does take the edge off but you can still feel everything.) It made me throw up twice, the second time I was on the toilet and I felt the baby move down a lot, when I got back up I had a strong urge to push. john called the nurse and the baby was ready to be pushed out. We waited for the doctor, and my angel was born at 21 weeks...on April 9, 2005. Christopher Logan White, weighed only 1 lb. 7 oz. and was only 9 1/2 inches long. he was born at 2:36 pm and lived for 44 minutes. The doctor was surprised he tolerated labor at all, when he came out the doctor said that there was no sign of life but the nurses found his heartbeat. he passed away in john's arms. When we found out things were wrong, we had started praying for a miracle. It wasn't until after he was born that I realized that he was the miracle, the fact that he was alive when he was born and we got to hold him and tell him that we love him. His presence brought peace instead of the huge sorrow I had expected...as we held him we just looked in awe at his perfect little body. he never opened his eyes or cried, but he knew that I am his mom and that I love him. the doctor recommended a week of bed rest. this is really hard! im sorry! i just dont understand what i did wrong this time! i did everything the doctors told me and now all i have to show for it, is another miscarriage and another baby that i will never get to hold!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the second death of a child i've had. i lost another pregnancy at 3 months pregnant but its not as hard as this one because i actually held chris and i had him, and then he was gone. i have nightmares about him everynight it scares me!
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2005|12:45 pm]
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shona
Hello

I'm m/c on 06/03/05
It was my first wee baby.
I kinda get the feeling he was a wee boy so i named him Aidan Matthew Morrison.
My Fiance Matthew and i were devastated at the loss.

We are now trying for another baby & hopefully i'll get pregnant soon.
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